Friday, March 31, 2006
uhh. okay. i am having my insomia again.
hmmm. today the last day of march is a special day.
i remembered, 12 years back...
that incident still lingers here in my mind.
12 years back of today, we were celebrating your birthday.
we really cant predict what would really happen in the future.
i was talking to the rest of them online just now.
and either they are acting as if they dint know, or just that they dun want to upset the others.
no matter what, its still your birthday.
so, if you are seeing this.
happy birthday girl!
you have always been there for me whenever i am down.
for the 12 years i have know you.
you have always been there for me.
i wanna say a big thank you to you.
without you, i might not be able to make it this far.
we made a promise remember?
when we are much older. we would go to italy for holiday.
when i've earned enough money, i would definetely visit italy to fulfill the promise i made.
wait for me there alright!
if only you knew...
``Sun Sets at : 3/31/2006 03:59:00 AM
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
hey hey!
Yesterday was a special day for a someone. RIGHT!?
i hope you would be seeing this.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRISCILLA !
hmmm, let me see, i think we had a 7 years friendship and counting...
muahaha. uhh, now i look around at all my primary school friends.
all of them have changed, in terms of looks etc.
yeah yeahh. pretty girls, and handsome guys.
i know what you are gonna say ( to that some one) I AM OUT OF THE LIST! RIGHT?
uhhh. i miss all of my primary school friends...
i just dun know why, just this weird feeling.
maybe one day we shall hold a gathering.
yeah yeah. JAY CHOU rocks. so many fans of him huh.
LOL.
hmmm. let me see. looking at the time.
i know its late.
NIGHT OWL SESSION ANYONE!?
LOL. i am so bored...
if you are reading this. 4.3.8. !
I AM HALF WAY THRU ALREADY!
STOP RUSHING ME.
yeah yeah, let me tell you why.
a someone is making up something for a other someone.
and the quantity she sets for herself is kinda too much.
so i am helping her to do "some".
i emphacise again. "SOME".
i am such a nice guy larhh.
better treat me better okay. and i would really appreciate if you include a free meal or something to go along. :D
in fact, you should larh. i am helping you with some things i am not really good in myself.
facing the com at least 12 hours a day just to help you.
I DESERVE SOMETHING RIGHT?
i just hope the end product would be something good huh.
i hope, you wish, we pray!
:)
okay, i got tagged by liying so i am suppose to do that thing too right.uhh so here it is.
(i HOPE i am not the FIRST guy to do this. lol.)
State the gender and 8 attributes you desire of your perfect lover.
female ! but if i am into the worst case scenario. a guy is okay. :P
1' I believe in love at first sight, but of cause there is still a need to know that person more before anything else happen. commitment, understanding and trust must be present. to me maybe some kind of chemistry? uhh, i am not a guy which is able to express myself well, so if she is able to roughly guess what's on my mind would be much easier. yeahh.
2' Freedom is important, to me friends, family are all equally important. i would still want some time to spare with my family and friends. some close friends and that includes girls. so yeahh. would be better if she clicks on rather well with my friends. uhhh.
3' probably have the same interests or hobbies as me. dining, sports, camping and probably SHOPPING!
yes shopping, i dun know why, maybe i am brought up this way, i love shopping, even if it is window shopping. girls who have their definition of shopping? like the things she fancy and those she does not. i dun mind listening.
i am more to the outdoor kinda of person so she must be kind of adventurous and stuff?
the sea, mountains, MOTHER EARTH!
4' i just want someone to be there for me whenever i need someone to. maybe not to the extend of "physical" but maybe "mentally" is enough. to lend a listening ear will do. hmmm i know its something weird, but maybe sing for me ? i find it rather sweet. uhh.
5' i have lots of commitments in life, like NPCC , some sports and stuff. so she must be able to understand that i have to spend time on all this commitments. yeahh.
6' maybe more matured and vibrant kind of girls. dressing wise, i think girls who dress and present themselves well will do.maybe not too skimpy clothes.? HEELS! i think girls who wear heels look much elegant.
7' i think girls who come up with something to surprise their boyfriends are so sweet uhh.
cause most of the time guys are taking initiative in dating and stuff, so i guess once in a while. girls should take the initiative. RIGHT GUYS!?
8' probably a non-smoker. social drinker and smoker is alright. looks dun really matter, average looking will do. i think having a good personality is much more important? also being fillial ?
probably because i want my children in the future to be fillial towards me too. uhhh. i guess just having a job with a stable income will do.
uhhh. tada. i am done.
uhhh. i am left with such little choices now .
most of the guys i know either dun have a blog or dun blog regularly.
i guess i would tag
jiajia, weijen, rachel and my dearest sister if you are reading this. :D
also, anyonewho have read this post . you are welcome to take part too. :)
okay okay. its around 5.30 . i guess i shall rest for the remaining of the "night".
``Sun Sets at : 3/28/2006 03:48:00 AM
Saturday, March 25, 2006
is it too late to turn over a new leaf ?
I always asked myself this question...
now, i have finally gottten the answer.
IT IS STILL NOT LATE TO TURN OVER A NEW LEAF.
the first major setback i had in life...
its just there for me to reflect on and maybe wake up and face reality.
maybe what rachel said is right...
i know that everyone that is close to me are disappointed ...
though they did not speak their mind out, maybe they are afraid to put pressure on me.
i know my relatives maybe looking down on me.
what i really hope for now is just a chance.
a chance to redeem myself.
and the chance is here for me now again.
i am not gonna let it slip away just like that again.
yeah, "he" maybe harsh with his words and action.
but this shows one thing...
he have not given up hope on me.
he has pint quite high hopes on me...
so this time i am not gonna let him down.
be it the toughest time i maybe going through.
nothing is gonna break my determination to succeed now.
I AM GONNA PROVE ALL OF THEM WRONG!
I AM PUTTING IN ALL MY EFFORTS.
PLEASE TRUST ME FOR ONCE AGAIN...
i know they are still many people out there that will be supporting me !
RIGHT!? RIGHT-ED!
yes rachel, the MELVIN you want to see would be there in 1 years time!
WAIT FOR ME OKAY!I WILL BE BACK!
this i promise you.with all the pressure building up. i seriously doubting myself that would i be able to fulfill those tasks you gave to me.
am i really the right choice for these tasks?
wont there be other better choices.
for all the tasks you gave me...
i am really trying hard to fulfill them.
really... no matter how mentally taxing it would be.
i would still try my best...
you have always been there to guide me whenever i face an obstacles during my life in secondary...
without you, there would be a me right here.for all your effort.
Thank You.
``Sun Sets at : 3/25/2006 04:18:00 AM
Saturday, March 18, 2006
i am back to blog.
for now, i kinda hate myself so much.
for what?
for being sturborn and not listening to other's advices.
though i am having regrets now.
but i'll definetely have to reflect on the past, and bring myself back to the present.
i am really lost on which route to choose.
they both have their pros and cons.
a contigency plan to fall back on?
or am i gonna take the gamble and thats my future on the line.
i know i am procrastinating and stuff.
but i just really cant keep my focus on doing anything.
and i really mean anything.
maybe its that i am not mature enough.
i just cant keep myself trouble-free.
i am not comparable to the others i know.
they got such good results, and me?
i got such results that end in me no where?
for that i deserve no trust in the things i do?
i am seriously wondering...
have you really given up hope on me?
if that really is the case.
i have really nothing more to say.
but to accept to fate.
opportunity are just like boats.they only pass by once, and you would never know if they would be back again.
treasure it for you might not know whether will it be still making its way back for you.
``Sun Sets at : 3/18/2006 07:25:00 AM
Friday, March 17, 2006
friday!
i love friday, simply for the reason that it is the last day of the weekdays!
which is kinda relax-ed and stuff.
so i will blog on friday!
people will always tell you, dun dwell back on the past, and look forward in life.
maybe it's i am too paranoid or something, i would never be able to live out of the past or something.
its just like....
would you ever forget the happiest moments in your life?
NO!
for that reason, i love those bitter sweet memories.
experiencing it was tough. but thinking back, those times were worth every sacrifices.
of course, we do learn from our past.
good or bad? that depends on the experience we had itself isnt it?
uhhh. i shall stop here.
``Sun Sets at : 3/17/2006 03:25:00 AM
Monday, March 13, 2006
yeahh. i am back to blog!
like after so long right. RIGHT-ED!
i kinda miss my secondary life a little too much i know.
i miss my days in npcc, studies.
those joy, laughter, fun moments still runs so vividly through my mind.
i had this dream back , where i had this flashback of my life in secondary school.
i miss this little girl i have known since i am young.
she would be there to accompany me through all my up and down's in life.
if only you were here...
i hate this stressful kind of life style.
and my previous post got deleted half way when i am typing!.
ARHHH. so yeahh. cant blame me for being lazy.
shall end here.
``Sun Sets at : 3/13/2006 02:02:00 AM
